Test results, you always have to wait for them, so why then was I told they would take a week and here we are two weeks later; TWO WHOLE WEEKS. I'm still in the dark.
An ultrasound and camera to check my womb. And again pregnant women give me another kick in the teeth: They can go for an ultrasound and they are actually allowed to look at it and get any information the doctor can see while they are scanning. Why should it be any different for me?
Each time I call the doctors to ask for them, there is a different person on the end of the phone, sometimes their tone of voice is very short and rude, like this is appropriate when someone is asking for a set results. Maybe they should think of that when speaking to people on the phone.
These results are not matter of life and death, it is not in the interests of my health that I get them soon. However, it is a matter of creating new life, offspring, a child or children of our own. It is beginning to be a matter of my wellbeing though. Why can we not conceive?
Now let's think about the results themselves: everything comes back clear and I'm fine. Then what are we doing wrong? If they come back negative then what? Why can't I get a straight answer?
This is so frustrating! I just want answers, I want to know, what to do next.
Oh and one final thing... Why are my periods all over the place?
I remember going to Woman2woman one evening and the speaker talked about her struggles with infertility but she now had 2 children....I remember thinking that yes you've been there but you now have kids so you can never be back in that place where I currently was. At that point I thought I was never going to be able to have children. I pray that one day soon you are in the position that I and this lady are in. Yes we remember the struggle but now we have children that hurt is gone. I pray God provides you with a miracle (or 2) like he did us. Xxxx